Ramblings

Some days you just have nothing to say and today is one of them. There's a bunch of stuff happening but none if it wants to make me express myself or share an opinion. Instead I just want to digest it for a while and see what thoughts will come. Sometimes thoughts will form, other times things will just drift off into the ether never to be seen again. Other times they will come back around when you are least expecting them.

Forgot to remember until I remembered I'd forgot

Sometimes I forget what I have learnt. I've been reminded by this since I received a HD Camera for Xmas and started to mess around it in the apartment. All the 3 years at University learning how to shoot video, frame shots up, to zoom and pan smoothly came back as an instinct not as a thought process. It wasn't until the end of me doing something did I realise that I had knowledge in how to use a camera and how to shoot clips.

Then today I downloaded a basic editing programme and soon found myself submerged back into the worlds of transitions, laying down a soundtrack and creating titles. I looked up from my computer and an hour had passed without me realising. I had become absorbed in the work and at the end of had a rough clip that I am going to turn into a larger project.

Now I have no illusion that I am the next Scorsese or even the next Youtube fad but the satisfaction in using a skill that you forgot you had is rewarding and good for my sense of self. Who knows what else I forgotten to remember or haven't even learnt yet but it helps to keep the world interesting and promising.

World of Words

The need to write something comes out of the need to express something. Words are something that are easy to use as they swirl around the universe every day. How often do we use them without realising the implications. How many of them do we utter only to have disappear into our sub conscience to emerge out of a cloud some day when we are least expecting them.

Writing down letters in a common pattern gives words increased power, as we are forced to think about their meaning and their purpose. At once they lend themselves to deeper thoughts and implied ideas. People have conversations with each other and what one person omits as an unnecessary detail can be the crux of the discussion to the other person. It is so easy to forget how others see us us or hear us until we are forced to put words on a page, these words are potentially going to be read by others and thus as a writer you immediately begin the internal debate of what they truly mean and whether anyone really cares.

Ultimately you have to break through these walls and write for the words alone, for it is with the words that you can create new worlds and these new worlds will lead to new words and eventually a story, an idea will take shape. Breaking the chains of being self conscious is an important and hard step, one I am yet to master but am striving for.